After I broke up with a serious boyfriend I kept all of our pictures, his letters, ticket stubs, even the sand from the beach where he first told me he loved me in a shoebox in my closet and I’d take it out from time to time and just be sad by myself. That was so unhealthy! I finally threw everything away, and since then I’ve felt a lot of closure. You might not need to get rid of everything, but definitely try not to surround yourself with love letters and play Adele for three hours straight.
It took me a while to come to that realization. To know that the Lord carries me, and not myself. Nothing in this world can be done by me alone. So I had to pick up my cross, die to myself, and come to the foot of the cross, my heart heavy with all I had done to ignore the Lord when He was desperately calling me.
My idolatry of tasks, specifically completing tasks has been revealed to me. I find security and peace when I check things off my list, instead of when I spend time in rest and worship with my Father. I am praying for the Lord to break me of that and teach me how to be a productive, organized woman, wife, employee and student while not worshipping the idol of busyness and to-do lists.