“[W]as this now only the beginning of really becoming?” [ann voskamp, one thousand gifts, p.84]
“Joy and pain, they are but two arteries of the one heart that pumps through all those who don’t numb themselves to really living.” [ann voskamp, one thousand gifts, p.84]
this chapter reminded me of last spring’s secret church simulcast, during which david platt asked (warning: rough paraphrase ahead), what if all the suffering in the world were evidence of God’s great mercy? what if He were holding back 99% of the suffering that could occur, and we were only seeing and enduring and living the 1%?
and we can even say: we don’t carry the 1% alone. because He has given us community to help us carry our small burdens and He has given us that cross, that great and ultimate symbol of suffering, on which He cast His life, and where we can cast those burdens and leave completely free.
i see it now. life is grace and i missed it.
He grows me. He grows me through seasons of loneliness and seasons of hardship and seasons of asking and wondering and questioning. the questioning sometimes comes desperate and sometimes comes angry. He is always there; always faithful, always tender, always in the midst of my pain.
i see it now. even my pain is grace and i missed that, too.
i’m making a new commitment to chase hard after His heart, because it’s only when i do that i see with His eyes instead of my own. and i want desperately to see with His eyes, to see grace where i would otherwise not, to push hard through to His truth.
“I can say it certain now: All is grace….
“All is grace only because all can transfigure.”
[ann voskamp, one thousand gifts, p.101]
1. what are three little things for which you’re thankful?
The sun on my face, lazy Sunday afternoons, and the human heart.
2. what’s your favorite verse and why?
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” (Psalm 73:26) I repeat this verse to myself at least once a day. It’s a simple, yet powerful reminder that I’m human and make mistakes. Although I will fail God sometimes, He is the source of my strength and all I need forever.
3. what’s your favorite flavor of ice cream?
Mmm…Moose Tracks. Yum!
4. coke or pepsi?
Coca Cola. Hands Down. No Contest.