Here was my first resolution of 2010 (or should we say late 2009):
Do not make any formal resolutions simply because it’s a new year.
Let me explain this.
As an elementary school student, my teachers made us write new year’s resolutions every single blasted time January rolled around. And I got incredibly sick of it, to the point that I resolved I wouldn’t make any more resolutions when new year’s came around for the sake of it being a new year. That, I thought, was ridiculous. Besides, when they’re resolutions that can have profound effects on your life, it is my firmly stated opinion that it is never a better time to make and implement said resolution the minute you think of it, rather than waiting however long it will be until the next January 1.
That being said, I’m breaking that resolution. Partially because I am making some resolutions and they do happen to coincide with the beginning of this new year. Partially because it’s Show Us Your Life – Resolutions at Kelly’s Korner today.
Anyway, here are my resolutions:
1. I want to fall deeply in love with Jesus. I have had some amazing encounters with Him these past several months and I have not chased Him as I should. I am having issues with really believing and trusting Him with my life and yet I know how faithful and reliable He is. I want a stronger and deeper faith, beginning now.
2. I want to be more myself around people. I am tired of being shy and I’m tired of letting people treat me like a doormat. I’m not sure how much this shows up in my outward demeanor, but that’s what I feel like and I’m tired of it. I’m nineteen and my own individual and I won’t stand for being treated like I’m not those things.
3. I want to be more willing to do things I don’t like, whether it be concerning my family, my friends, school, anything. I want to be a lot less about me and lot more about Jesus and others.
4. I need to stop swearing. I have never liked it of myself. While I’ve done a pretty good job these past couple weeks of not swearing (I sort of went cold turkey on kicking the habit), it is going to be a much bigger battle to stop thinking the words as well. To me swearwords are self-degrading and indicative of a poor vocabulary, and since I personify neither of those things, it disgusts me. (Ironic, since I use the words.) The other thing with that, though, is I was never raised to swear nor do I believe they’re words Christians should say. And with that, I resolve to hopefully never say them again.
Oh, and this one should probably be further up on the list, but regardless, here it is:
5. I want to be truly fearless. I want to live my life as an adventure rather than fearing every small thing that could go wrong. I want to learn how to fearlessly trust God. Part of the reason I got my second holes pierced last week was because it was making me nervous, and I determined I wasn’t going to put off doing something I’d wanted for several years just because the idea of needle-like projectiles being put through my earlobes intimidated me slightly. So thankfully I am getting somewhere with this one in the smaller, more trivial aspects of life, but I want it to really characterize who I am and how I live in all aspects.
How about you? What are your resolutions?