there’s something astounding about building 429 singing, “You are God, there is no other… i was made for You” as thunder crackles across the sky.
the love of Jesus is rumbling across the sky, over my head, and this is how i know His banner over me is love, because i hear it.
for i am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. • romans 8:38-39
i don’t know how to live there. i don’t know how to live in a way that exemplifies love.
i understand politeness. i understand efficiency. i understand blunt and to the point.
but i don’t understand
You are God, there is no other. i won’t bow before another. i was made for, i was made for You.
the lightning flashing is love lavished on my hard and stony heart.
restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. • psalm 51:12
i have prayed this, caught in a desert i’m certain is of my own making. i don’t want to be happy; it connotes artificial smiles and contrived merrymaking in my mind. i want what wells up from deep inside and spills out into every facet of life.
i want joy.
there’s a marked difference between the two. and i’m trying to figure out, as a reformed pessimist and a sensitive introvert, how i live the depth of joy with the reality that life is rarely a happy surface.
one foot in front of the other: that’s how i’m gonna discover.
in that day you will say:… “surely God is my salvation; i will trust and not be afraid. the LORD, the LORD himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.” with joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation. • isaiah 12:1a, 2-3
lyrics from building 429, “made for you” & “one foot”