one | apple pie. YUM.
two | we finally got our christmas decorations up!
three | words of exhortation; a breath of fresh air for my soul.
four | finally started this book after wanting to read it for months. it was fabulous! if you haven’t read it, you should.
five | i’m guest posting at jen‘s today!
i had some thoughts rattling around in my brain earlier about motivation. i’m largely intrinsically motivated, and the managers at the store i work at recently set up a contest to motivate higher performance among the sales associates. i’m really not sure how i feel about this whole contest thing. i’m not one to do my work at a certain standard based on what i’ll get out of it. i do my work well because i was raised that when you have work to do, you do it well whether you like it or not. it’s how we were expected to do chores around the house, our schoolwork, and how we now perform at our jobs.
i considered too: sometimes – actually, often – we take this into our lives as christians. we look at extrinsically motivating factors. we say prayers of salvation because we want to go to heaven, or perhaps more simply, because we don’t want to go to hell. we talk other people’s ears off about Jesus because we want the same for them. we do everything with the consideration of how it will benefit us, how it will make us look, how we might be esteemed, etc.
i’m tired of that.
i’m wondering how things might change if we let the Spirit move us instead of trying to move the Spirit, because i think that’s what we’re doing. i think we try to urge the Spirit into doing what we think is God’s will or what looks more holy, because we feel if we’re not doing anything, we’re not actively living as christians.
please, join me in tossing that false gospel straight out into the trash bin where it belongs.
i’m tired of this feeling of being defeated, and i think it’s because i’m trying to force the Spirit into movement. when i feel like i’m not living up to my potential as a college graduate; when i feel left behind by my friends, almost all of who have moved out of state; when i feel spiritually and physically exhausted: all of these make me feel like the Spirit isn’t moving, like i’m stagnant, like i’ve lost something. and i’m extrinsically motivated, by all of these things, to force something holy – or that only looks holy – to start happening.
& i fail to be intrinsically motivated – moved by the Spirit which dwells in me and which is faithful to speak His words and will alone.
i’ve started reading believing God by beth moore and diving back into scripture, because i want only one motivation: the intrinsically situated voice of His Holy Spirit.