i’ve been playing this song on repeat in my car lately.
i have a personal theory that music in your car isn’t actually music unless the bass causes your car to vibrate. so i turn it up and my rearview mirror rattles and i smile a little to myself, because that’s just the detroit in me and i love it.
but i don’t think you can listen to that song over and over without starting, at some point, to think about what it’s actually saying.
i want to live dangerous.
what does that even mean?
me, dangerous? on a soccer field, definitely. but everyday? as a means of living?
i want to live dangerous, risk it all for You, Lord.
i don’t want to risk anything. i want to hold tightly to what i know, stay safely ensconced inside my comfort zone, and take more than the occasional nap.
one morning in may i woke up a little before 9am to buy a ticket for a conference in its inaugural year, to which i was planning to go with a girl who has since become one of my best blog friends, but whom at the time i hardly knew. all i knew for sure was that i believed wholeheartedly in Jesus, in His community, and His presence in the blogging world. and shoo – it exploded.
in october i went to that conference, still filled with trepidation. i almost called my mom right before i pulled out of my driveway to ask, “are you sure i can go to indiana? i’m crossing state lines. i’m going to be gone for five days. WITHOUT YOU.” i was sure my usually shy self would take over at the conference and i would sit quietly on the sidelines of many conversations, nodding and smiling when appropriate and venturing to say maybe a few things where i felt reasonably unobtrusive doing so.
it turns out when i live dangerously by driving to indianapolis at 21 to meet a bunch of women i hadn’t met previously to talk about Jesus and how the mystery of His grace intersects with the very precise science of computers and technology, i don’t shut up. and i have something to say. and people listen.
i don’t understand this platform He’s given me. sometimes i lose my mind and think i’ll shut the whole thing down. but ultimately, i don’t want to do that. i want to learn how to utilize this blog, my social media presence, and my knowledge of both to magnify His glory and expand His kingdom.
that, i think, is how to live dangerously.