This is from a conversation a friend (who I assume would prefer to remain unnamed) and I had a long time ago. We both love talking philosophy with each other and this is a little of what I said to her.
There is something about God that compels us toward Him; a mysterious quality He has that we cannot understand, and because of that lack of understanding, draws us to discover more and more of Him. We can’t know all of Him, and never will, and yet we chase.
In short, He intrigues us. Or at least, He should.
I am inherently nosy. My oft unasked question is always, “Why?” (I am probably majoring in the wrong thing; I should probably major in sociology or anthropology because both of those fields answer the whys of life, in what ways they can.) I just like to know the reasons people do what they do, and in particular, the history behind such decisions. I place a huge emphasis on personal stories. You have one, and it affects you, and in my opinion, that is enough of a reason to share it if you feel so compelled.
And so, in this time of searching for God like never before, I am also asking Him, “Why?” more than ever before. I don’t understand this God of mercy. I never will. But in faith, I follow. In curiosity, I follow. He is faithful to slowly reveal more and more of His heart to us if we trust Him with our own. We will never discover all of Him. In fact, we will not even discover very much.
In her book Authentic Beauty, Leslie Ludy writes:
What amazing adventures lie before the little ant that sets out to travel from Raleigh, North Carolina, to Eugene, Oregon…. You might think our little ant a bit crazy if, by the time he arrived at the city limits of Raleigh, he assumed he had arrived in Eugene. ‘Little ant,’ we might say, ‘you’ve actually just begun your journey. There is so much more for you to discover, so much more for you to experience.
How often do we sell ‘knowing Christ’ short? There is an endless frontier of discovery and possibility with our Prince, yet we stop at the outskirts of Raleigh and convince ourselves that we’ve arrived at our intended destination. In reality, we’ve only just begun in our exploration of our Prince’s Kingdom. It may take our little ant a thousand years to make his journey from Raleigh to Eugene, but his journey is nothing compared to the adventure we are on. Our little ant could probably make his journey one hundred times before we would even be approaching the Mississippi River in our relationship with Jesus Christ.
It’s a crazy adventure we’re on, this relationship with God. We must be diligent to not grow complacent, to continue chasing Him with everything. I want Him to capture my heart, to compel me towards Him more and more each day. I pray you will desire the same.